Wednesday, October 10, 2018

Burnt Amber & Sage...........Finally!

I am very grateful for the above normal summer season we here in Northern Ontario had this year,  which sparked the enthusiastic need for adventure, and now, serverall brain cells less, do to over heating, I am levelling out and gathering myself once again.

Yes, with heated lakes comes mounds of snow,  a winters winter, to be sure! My " must read" pile is high and my reading speed has increased! Reading my FAVORITE genre is my tranquilizer during this decay of democracy & human behaviour. I strongly recommend this treatment!  I am also toying with the idea of Meditation! Hilarious to me, but intriguing! I reWatch  Eat, Pray, Love to kindle this idea! ( full disclosure: I stop tape at the Love part!)

October, oh October.  For me, the dread of another long winter in a numb city, mustarding the will to soldier  on, filling my head with dreams of adventure to come?  Why must optimism fade as years go on?
I am very interested in what Your optimism enhancers are? The ones that are all about You & your well being. Sharing may spark solutions in others!

I am grateful to those who visited after my long absence ( why did I want to write Absyinth! )
I see you!
Yes, I am finding it difficult to blog but I am forcing my difficult self to Get Over IT!  All of you
help more than you know! What topics are you in search of?

Be Well & Be Safe & most of all Be Kind to each other


Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Choose A Lane.........not that easy

Yes I know it has been ForEVER! since I visited my Grange.  Only selfish exquises and whiny tales come to mind so moving right along, I'm pleased to sit and think about the latest direction suggestion.

Once I chased change, then waited and followed willingly, now I've become timid and fearful of wandering off my comfy path.

In July I mustard up a 5 day runaway, with my 3 grandsons & daughter for stability, and visited my hometown.   Nope , nothing!  No tugging at my heart strings, no, could I come back, Nothing.
I think it was the dense population that froze me.  Once a small town, now fast lane or nursing homes.
Great visit with my younger self ( my daughter) and more time with my very humorous middle puddleduck ,  I was sad to say goodbye, For Now!  My other two puddlecks, eldest especially, enjoys my flighty spirit and a hint of irresponsibility.  I was in very mature company at all times!
Even my little sister was the portrait of lovely retired suburban life!
   Still, not sparking but felt further investigation was required.   So back to my familiar " who needs what" cycle.

Every seer I consult, every tarot card I flip, the message is the same. " you can either hold tight, totally let go or try to ride the current, but it's time to make a choice" " Choose a Lane" Align yourself with what you need, so you can respond with intention to what you got"  HAHAhahah, okay!

So coming to my loooong lost Puddleduck Grange, which has many, many, many years of lane changes, I sit, & sit & sit.   As a person who is an excellent Party of One! the multiply choice is frightful

Any thoughts on the matter is greatly appreciated!  I have googled, " aging, maturing with grace, getting older, new direction for older women ". and it is hideous , now there is an area that NEEDS to change Lanes!  Did I just get a subtle hint?  No, no, I've saved enough lives, for now, heal thy self!

My reading has really picked up!  I escape into historical fantasy at every chance!  I do deviate off to the Classics to balance me out, I am even slumming in Murder Mystery presently, only because my much admired author Patti Smith raved about the HBO series of Sharp Objects.
   The cost of anything in Canada is high, especially quality cable shows, so the book wins!
Great, a story of a messed up girl with mother issues and self loathing, REALLY?  But I must finish
even if it's uncomfortable.  Another change lane moment

I feel some rambling coming on, and experiencing blockage on the whole ME subject, so again, if anyone still reads my blog, I have always loved everyone comments ALL These Years!
Be back soon, Blogger is getting cranky about my absence as well! Hahaha