Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Choose A Lane.........not that easy

Yes I know it has been ForEVER! since I visited my Grange.  Only selfish exquises and whiny tales come to mind so moving right along, I'm pleased to sit and think about the latest direction suggestion.

Once I chased change, then waited and followed willingly, now I've become timid and fearful of wandering off my comfy path.

In July I mustard up a 5 day runaway, with my 3 grandsons & daughter for stability, and visited my hometown.   Nope , nothing!  No tugging at my heart strings, no, could I come back, Nothing.
I think it was the dense population that froze me.  Once a small town, now fast lane or nursing homes.
Great visit with my younger self ( my daughter) and more time with my very humorous middle puddleduck ,  I was sad to say goodbye, For Now!  My other two puddlecks, eldest especially, enjoys my flighty spirit and a hint of irresponsibility.  I was in very mature company at all times!
Even my little sister was the portrait of lovely retired suburban life!
   Still, not sparking but felt further investigation was required.   So back to my familiar " who needs what" cycle.

Every seer I consult, every tarot card I flip, the message is the same. " you can either hold tight, totally let go or try to ride the current, but it's time to make a choice" " Choose a Lane" Align yourself with what you need, so you can respond with intention to what you got"  HAHAhahah, okay!

So coming to my loooong lost Puddleduck Grange, which has many, many, many years of lane changes, I sit, & sit & sit.   As a person who is an excellent Party of One! the multiply choice is frightful

Any thoughts on the matter is greatly appreciated!  I have googled, " aging, maturing with grace, getting older, new direction for older women ". and it is hideous , now there is an area that NEEDS to change Lanes!  Did I just get a subtle hint?  No, no, I've saved enough lives, for now, heal thy self!

My reading has really picked up!  I escape into historical fantasy at every chance!  I do deviate off to the Classics to balance me out, I am even slumming in Murder Mystery presently, only because my much admired author Patti Smith raved about the HBO series of Sharp Objects.
   The cost of anything in Canada is high, especially quality cable shows, so the book wins!
Great, a story of a messed up girl with mother issues and self loathing, REALLY?  But I must finish
even if it's uncomfortable.  Another change lane moment

I feel some rambling coming on, and experiencing blockage on the whole ME subject, so again, if anyone still reads my blog, I have always loved everyone comments ALL These Years!
Be back soon, Blogger is getting cranky about my absence as well! Hahaha


Tuesday, July 18, 2017

Canadian Sisters Rebel Yell!

Hello there! ( as my new favourite Netflix Chelsea Handler would say)
I've been all over the graph lately, my restlessness of spirit is exhausting.  Family is marching forward, with confidence, puddleduck's are aging rapidly and a new princess Puddleduck has joined the clan! Comforting to know that a tiny speck of this wacky Nana will live on.
Ancestors have been poking my sister & I .  With the mess just south of us ( 🇺🇸) our heritage flairs.
Our maternal grandmother was born in USA. This family began here. The Crittenden's

Webster NY.

Little sister loves to roam, but with purpose.  Her quest was to visit great great grands resting place and feel the area that our maternal grandmother ( who my little sisters takes after)  called home befor she fell for a " bad boy" Canadian. My sister felt the pull, but distressed by the divide in ideals.  Vermont , Connecticut, Webster NY, puritin ancestors walked. I did hear a whisper of some in Pennsylvania  & Massacusites ( sorry for spelling ) who didn't pass the " Puritan"  test! ( wink, wink!)
She did report a wonderful trip, whimsical B & B's , and politics alerting tourists what to expect.
I wonder if my sister had her treasured "Obama" bobblehead on her dashboard?

Catskills USA 

My American genes rage daily on twitter, this must be the not so puritan ancestors influence. Rebel journalists, rebel causes, that's for me! Blocking bots, pushing democratic principles, tweeting ellietest hypocrisy.  My familiar path is that of my paternal grandmother who hails from Wales. In another life, I may find myself there.

Carmarthenshire Wales

I roam without purpose, travel down roads unknown, happy for the journey !

Parry Sound Ont. Canada on the shores of Georgian Bay, spotted with tiny lakes and rushing streams.

But together , my sister & I represent the amazing women before us! ♥️