Wednesday, September 5, 2018

Choose A Lane.........not that easy

Yes I know it has been ForEVER! since I visited my Grange.  Only selfish exquises and whiny tales come to mind so moving right along, I'm pleased to sit and think about the latest direction suggestion.

Once I chased change, then waited and followed willingly, now I've become timid and fearful of wandering off my comfy path.



In July I mustard up a 5 day runaway, with my 3 grandsons & daughter for stability, and visited my hometown.   Nope , nothing!  No tugging at my heart strings, no, could I come back, Nothing.
I think it was the dense population that froze me.  Once a small town, now fast lane or nursing homes.
Great visit with my younger self ( my daughter) and more time with my very humorous middle puddleduck ,  I was sad to say goodbye, For Now!  My other two puddlecks, eldest especially, enjoys my flighty spirit and a hint of irresponsibility.  I was in very mature company at all times!
Even my little sister was the portrait of lovely retired suburban life!
   Still, not sparking but felt further investigation was required.   So back to my familiar " who needs what" cycle.

Every seer I consult, every tarot card I flip, the message is the same. " you can either hold tight, totally let go or try to ride the current, but it's time to make a choice" " Choose a Lane" Align yourself with what you need, so you can respond with intention to what you got"  HAHAhahah, okay!

So coming to my loooong lost Puddleduck Grange, which has many, many, many years of lane changes, I sit, & sit & sit.   As a person who is an excellent Party of One! the multiply choice is frightful

Any thoughts on the matter is greatly appreciated!  I have googled, " aging, maturing with grace, getting older, new direction for older women ". and it is hideous , now there is an area that NEEDS to change Lanes!  Did I just get a subtle hint?  No, no, I've saved enough lives, for now, heal thy self!

My reading has really picked up!  I escape into historical fantasy at every chance!  I do deviate off to the Classics to balance me out, I am even slumming in Murder Mystery presently, only because my much admired author Patti Smith raved about the HBO series of Sharp Objects.
   The cost of anything in Canada is high, especially quality cable shows, so the book wins!
Great, a story of a messed up girl with mother issues and self loathing, REALLY?  But I must finish
even if it's uncomfortable.  Another change lane moment

I feel some rambling coming on, and experiencing blockage on the whole ME subject, so again, if anyone still reads my blog, I have always loved everyone comments ALL These Years!
Be back soon, Blogger is getting cranky about my absence as well! Hahaha

xoDebi.

11 comments:

  1. Hi Debi :)
    Love that you are blogging again. I think I might start my blogging again too :)
    Have a great day ❤️

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  2. Hello ! Yes! you must blog again! I visited, even when I couldn't read your lovely language!
    Your home is wonderful, Netflix has several series filmed in Norway that I watch! The Innocent & Downsizing. I will be watching for you, thank you for visiting me! xoDebi

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  3. Glad you're back! I don't usually go looking for change because it finds me itself. Sometimes it takes a while to show up though, it's true. But I just enjoy that peace and quiet while it lasts, LOL!

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    1. I love reading your blog! It's very busy even when kitty is running things! Hahahah! Thank you for your insight, peace is clarity isn't it! I must enjoy it more as it it doesn't last long with my crew! Hahahah. Visit you soooon! xDebi

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  4. Lovely to see you back! Sometimes I miss blogging too. I think you are great as you are xxx

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  5. Thank you, I'm happy to stretch my imagination to nclude my blog, it has bought endless joy over the many years and I have wonderful virtual friends to prove it! Hugeugs from farawaya, XoDebi

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  6. Hey Debi! Great to hear from you!
    My advice, be you! What ever that might be, just be you. Sit for awhile, if you can and connect to your heart. Your heart will lead you on the right path!
    Have fun reading!
    Big Hugs!

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    1. Thank my Canadian neighbour! Your Crow Lovers painting makes me smile each morning and I think of your generosity. I must get back to what brings joy and all of YOU! who are always just a click away. I hope your well and creating with JOY! I appreciate your visit & help. xoDebi

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  7. Hello Debi! It has been quite sometime since I have written, but I have catching up on your blog. I thoroughly your posts and glad to hear you are well. Happy Fall - My favorite time of the year in New England - I would love to keep in touch xx

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    1. Hello! Yes I look forward to visiting with you again! I would like to catchup with you as well!
      New England, land of my maternal grandmother.
      xo

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    2. Hello! Yes I look forward to visiting with you again! I would like to catchup with you as well!
      New England, land of my maternal grandmother.
      xo

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